Random Thoughts: The Next Mutation

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  1. MissUMana -member- -member-

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    Posted: Mon Jul 14, 2014 3:12 am

    Cerceaux wrote:
    :lol:
     
  2. faith -tea party- -tea party-

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    Posted: Tue Jul 15, 2014 3:23 pm

  3. PureElegance -eternite- eternite

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    Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2014 2:14 pm

    faith wrote:
    Aw, I like soccer a lot. My parents and I will most likely never know what it's like to win or be close to winning the World Cup since Peru's team is so bad, but we still get excited, especially for Messi. We were pretty bummed out that Argentina lost because we felt sorry for Messi. He looked so sad. Who knows if he'll get to that point again. We were even surprised they made it that far because most of his teammates aren't very good. His team isn't that great, Di Maria (the one good one) was injured, and Higuain and Palacios missed like three goals. I hope he wins the World Cup someday, that's the only thing he's never gotten, and he's such a decent, good guy too. He even has "Bippidi Boppidi Boo" in his commercial.

    I went sailing and it was really great! I'll have to upload my pictures. It was a beautiful day and we went all the way to the Statue of Liberty. I love ships and being out by the water, it's the best. I don't know, but I love the adventure. My hair was flowing in the wind, I was humming "High Barbary," and I loved watching the crew lower the sails. By the time I arrived home and the day went on though I could sense whatever happiness I got dissipate. Things happened and I felt all of it kind of go away, and I wondered if the rest of the summer would be like this. Nothing totally bad happened, but I wondered how I could change things for the better.

    I was also featured in a campaign by LatinoJustice and they said I was "stellar" and had strong writing skills, an impressive community service background, and that I conducted substantial research that helped every department. Aw!

    I was bummed out after the game so I decided to clean out my closet and now I have three bags of clothes to give away. I also reorganized my bookcases and have boxes of books to give away.

    Last night I told Shannen, "I haven't been happy since April. I wish people would believe me when I say that." She said, "I believe you. Your texts aren't nearly as happy as they once were."

    I told her and Corinne that I'm not sure what to do anymore. Actually, I feel worse now than I did two months ago and I'm not sure why. Whatever I have isn't going away. I feel worse because I've realized that it hasn't left despite everything I've done with my life. I also feel weird because I've been hurt in many ways already, I've been betrayed, I've been deliberately ignored, I've been talked about behind my back, I've been treated badly, I've ignored red flags, I've never had closure for some things, and I thought that after all that, especially after last fall, I wouldn't be feeling this way. Or really feeling anything at all at this point, actually. Geez, didn't I learn in Shanghai not to waste emotions like this?
    I'm so confident, I'm a much better person after last year, really liking New York too now, I'm doing all these things, but this feeling inside is just... there. I don't understand. I'm supposed to be Queen Adela and everything, I don't get it, I'm really trying hard and filling up my life with good things. I've even improved myself as a person, admitted wrongs, I'm sleeping way earlier, and yet I still feel... I don't know. As if something is missing? Like something is off? But then again, this entire year I've been doing good things for myself and I feel as if I'm in an even better place now...
    I still feel something weird there, and I'm more frustrated knowing it's there. It makes me sad. I've also been feeling like the prodigal son for a while too, but I'm not sure why.
    I stood there with my arms crossed and I said to my mom, "I don't understand it. I can't describe it. I feel so silly and ridiculous. I'm sure I'll even laugh about this in a few months. I'm just not sure what else to do at this point. I was determined to make July different." I'm feeling ridiculous! I even know I'll laugh about this eventually, but for some reason I can't tell what's lingering. It's been getting me down lately at times too when I notice it's there.

    Then when I show my sadness I'm called "fucking weak" and a coward, and I feel worse. Am I really such a bad person? I don't know. It's kind of hard to believe how much more enhanced and happier my life was some time ago. I'm not sure how to really get that back. I don't know what it is that is not going away. I actually feel as if I'm going above and beyond now!


    Anyway, I'm going to see my Chinese lit professor soon. I have her phone number now! She chose a Japanese tea house and I looked at the menu all "::zetsubou::" because I never liked tea and there's not even Coke on the menu. I'll try whatever though! One thing in China that bugged me was how tea was served always at the fancy restaurants, and sometimes... there was no Coke or alternative at all.

    Then I'm going to see the Walking with Dinosaurs show on Friday because I am a gigantic nerd.

    I also asked Shrisha if she'd like to go to Coney Island/Luna Park with me and she said yes. Finally, FINALLY. I have been wanting to go there since March, but it didn't reopen until April 14. The trouble is that either my friends are dying at Bank of America or JP Morgan, or can't afford to spend that much money, or just aren't in the city. Good thing Shrisha is living here for the first time, has been asking me like every day to hang out, and wants to explore the city. Excellent, excellent, bwahahahaha ::meev::

    I'm also off to my first Princeton Club event so I can enjoy live music and mingle with all my friends from the Columbia, Yale, Cornell, and Penn clubs. That's how the invitation was worded ::meev::
     
  4. faith -tea party- -tea party-

    faith
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    Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2014 5:38 pm

    PureElegance wrote:
    I dunno. He seems like an ok guy, but for the publicity he has and the money he earns I think he could do more.
    With power comes responsibility and yada yada.

    We went to a bar called dirty dick's this evening.
    It was in Pigalle so I expected it to be...well...like its name kinda.

    ...it was a Hawaii themed bar. There was Hula music. My cocktail was garnished with a slice of dragonfruit. Gosh ::meev::
     
  5. Cerceaux -tea party- -tea party-

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    Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2014 7:22 pm

    Saw the commercial for Teddy Tank today. I've always wanted a mildew-filled stuffed animal with a dead fish in it! ::batsu::
     
  6. PureElegance -eternite- eternite

    PureElegance
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    Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2014 1:24 pm

    faith wrote:
    I actually said, "Excuse me, excuse me" out loud.
    Oh, I forgot to respond to your post a while ago, but when I read your response about the panties and how you creeped into my room I was at the gym and I laughed out loud.
    I mean, Adela loud in the gym did laugh.

    Omg omg new favorite song, "Captain Ward." I wish I could be just like him! It came out in the 1800s based on Jack Ward's life and I found this excellent version by an English folk singer who plays a fiddle along with the accordion man.
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=klhS_vnPb3Q
    I love it ::squee:: His voice and the playing! The lyrics:

    *aspires to be like Captain Ward*

    An article was written about the songs in Assassin's Creed 4:
    http://kotaku.com/the-best-sea-shanties ... 1486865100
    I love peoples' comments about their own favorite songs. I think my favorite tavern song is "Young Edwin in the Lowlands Low," but I like most of them very much. "Star of the County Down," "Blow the Candles Out," "Captain Ward," "Down Among the Dead Men," "Three Ravens," "Trooper and the Maid," "William Taylor," " As for the shanties, I really like "Fish in the Sea," "Runnin Down to Cuba," "Drunken Sailor," "Leave Her Johnny," "Spanish Ladies," "Randy Dandy O," and "High Barbary." I haven't even found them all yet so I haven't heard all of them.

    I don't know, but details like the songs are what makes the game awesome for me. Someone said that hearing the sea water against your ship while your crew is singing is an amazing gaming experience. It is! Now I can say I actually went sailing. It was really wonderful, especially because I got to see other ships that looked like they were from the past.

    I also finally killed a humpbacked whale and renovated my gardens! I'm on the hunt for the white whale and great white sharks. I'm upgrading my ship too and it's looking cooler every time. I'm even taking on multiple frigates at once. Now I have to build a guest house... *not really doing the main mission*

    I tried darjeeling tea with my professor, but I didn't really like it. At least I tried! It was so nice talking to her again! She's off to Princeton in a couple of weeks and I really want to visit her there. After eating we walked through Washington Square Park and I had a really nice time! I told her how WSP used to look like, it used to be like a parking lot with only the arch and the fountain in the middle. I said the area looked so different, and she didn't know that, haha. She's such a nerd and I always feel bad saying bye to her!
     
  7. flowersofnight -moderator- -moderator-

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    Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2014 1:56 pm

    PureElegance wrote:
    I like this one:
    http://www.contemplator.com/sea/fishes.html
    But I heard it as "The Boston Come-All-Ye".

    I still recommend:
    http://www.amazon.com/dp/1931013098
     
  8. PureElegance -eternite- eternite

    PureElegance
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    Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2014 8:35 pm

    flowersofnight wrote:
    I love Fish in the Sea! The version I listen to seems really Scottish though compared to yours. Doesn't anyone love High Barbary? Haul Away Joe? Spanish Ladies? I love those and I've had them on my phone for years. I wish there was an article on the tavern songs though because those are my big favorites even though they aren't shanties. The ending song for the game is "The Parting Glass" and it's slowly sung by a woman and it's really sad since everyone dies. I haven't gotten to the end by any means, but I looked up the song and saw what people said. Just hearing it made me all teary-eyed!
    http://www.ireland-information.com/iris ... lass.shtml
    One Scottish song is so Scottish that I couldn't understand the singer until I found the lyrics with translations:
    http://www.traditionalmusic.co.uk/folk- ... Lauder.htm

    Assassin's Creed 3 had Haul on the Bowline, Haul Away Joe, Hanging Johnny, and Press Gang. I loved Hanging Johnny!

    I actually found another version by the Irish Rovers of "Star of the County Down" and it's so cute. It made me go, "Awww! ::squee::" while getting McDonald's.
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rGhb0pAK30

    AWWWW! I don't know why, but I love the phrases used. "My hat cocked right," "she whirled with the lads of the town," "soft brown eyes with a look so shy," "nut brown hair," "smile like a rose in June," "lilted an Irish tune" things like that. It's so... cute? Wholesome? Like from a past era? I think it's so cute how he saw her and thought she was really pretty, aw! And wearing your Sunday clothes to the Harvest Fair, aw! ::squee:: ::squee:: ::squee::

    Apple's free game of the week happened to be AC: Black Flag for the iphone. It's like the game except with a different story. The graphics are beautiful. They also sing shanties, but the same three over and over, but I like listening to "Fish in the Sea," "Leave Her Johnny," and "The Dead Horse." The game is pretty awesome on its own.

    I'll get it! I'm already going into infinite nerddom with all of these songs on my phone...

    This guy made a three post analysis of the song "Young Edwin in the Lowlands Low."
    http://mbmonday.blogspot.com/2012/10/di ... s-low.html
    And I thought I was a nerd! I'm glad to see my favorite tavern song gets a thorough analysis though. He goes through each version of the song, from the US, England, and Ireland.
    Me too!
    I think we're soulmates ::meev::
     
  9. faith -tea party- -tea party-

    faith
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    Posted: Fri Jul 18, 2014 5:38 pm

    Anyan jumped in the toilet when I got home :lol:

    Usually the lid is down and she jumps on it and eats a tissue while I'm washing my hands.
    But this morning I forgot to put it down...

    Anyan also got a shower when I got home.

    Incidentially so did I, since today is the first day of 2 shower weather this year.
    Not cause I jumped in any toilets or anything.
     
  10. PureElegance -eternite- eternite

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    Posted: Mon Jul 21, 2014 9:34 pm

    Shrisha and I went to Coney Island and it was a blast! Both our parents were thinking we were going to the End of the World all because we were going to Brooklyn. We went to Luna Park and the Deno's Wonder Wheel amusement park.
    http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Luna_Park,_Coney_Island
    The original Luna Park was built in 1903!
    There was a super popular ride called "A Trip to the Moon," and I wonder what it would've been like to ride it.
    http://io9.com/5914655/in-1901-you-coul ... o-the-moon
    I love old places. It had freak shows, the carnival games, old types of rides, and eventually things like roller coasters. There's also a boardwalk and the beach there, and we went on a great day to walk by the ocean!

    On the way Shrisha asked me about law school stuff and I said, "I have no hopes, haha." She asked me why not and I said I just don't want to have any expectations and "What are the chances anyway? What are the chances that it's going to happen to me?" She said I will never know until it happens or not and I said I guess, but I just don't want to get any hopes at all. I'm at a point where there's nothing more I can do except wait, but I'm not going to get even slightly excited. She was really sweet about it though!

    We sat for the train ride talking about Disney and other things. It took her a while to get around to loving Disney, and I gasped. I said I can't get over movies like Beauty and the Beast, Sleeping Beauty, and The Hunchback of Notre Dame. She said about Sleeping Beauty that you don't see that level of detail anymore and I told her not to get me started on that. I always tear up at The Making of Sleeping Beauty! I love the comment that the movie is like looking at a beautiful painting on the wall! I also told her that the movie didn't make much profit even though it was a big success because that's how expensive it was to make, and they couldn't afford to make that type of movie again. I also went on about HoND and how great that was, the art, the organs, the chants, the themes. I also told her about Fantasyland opening up at Disney World and how the Beauty and the Beast castle was recreated, even the ballroom! Even the dishes have "Try the grey stuff..." written on them. That attention to detail makes me love Disney. Even the West Wing was recreated along with the stained glass windows! Be still my heart.

    We got to The Edge of the World (Brooklyn) and ate a donut to hold us over. We decided to do the Steeplechase first to prep for later roller coasters. It was really pretty! We got the $100 ticket to have 155 credits and it was perfect.

    We went on The Cyclone roller coaster and it was built in 1927! One reason I like Coney Island so much is that there are still remnants of the past. A lot has been torn down or burned, but there are still little things left like the Wonder Wheel, Nathan's Hot Dog, The Cyclone, the Astroland Rocket, the Parachute tower, the signs, etc. It has a weird vibe to it now. The Deno's Wonder Wheel area is the most old-fashioned, dated looking area, but in a good way. The Wonder Wheel was made in 1920! The area is in between, right in the middle of Luna Park, which is more modern, so it's odd!

    They put old pictures up of what it used to look like back in it's glory days, and it's really cool. I suggest we go on a ride that I went on back in Shanghai and it's one that just takes you in circles in the air. It sort of looks like a carrousel. It's so colorful and it had pictures of old brochures on it along with the giant wooden elephant that used to be there until it caught on fire. I pointed that out to Shrisha and she thought it was neat and wishes it was still around.
    http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Elephantine_Colossus

    We went on the bumper cars at Deno's and those were so much fun! It was blasting music as we drove and I felt like I was in a movie. My hair was flying and I was determined to bump into Shrisha. I felt so awesome. I hadn't done bumper cars in years! When I was little in Peru there was a place that had an arcade and bumper cars and I wanted to go to every time. It was really nice too because of the other people. You're all in it together for the fun, regardless of who you are and where you came from. The overall vibe was really nice.

    She made some comments about exes while we were transitioning back to Luna Park and when I didn't really say much she asked, "You don't have any bad exes??" I didn't say anything and sort of laughed and she said, "You lucky girl!" I don't know, is that it? What can I really say? I unexpectedly met someone who came out of nowhere and brought a lot of good into my life, who I could be myself with, making me into a better person. I had conversations I hadn't had with anyone in years and I haven't had them since. I had thoughts I never had before and it was freaking me out. I was treated well on a whole other level and was even getting what I wished for sexually. I actually felt as if the entire time I was getting back in touch with things that made me me, like astronomy, extinct species, Beauty and the Beast, my elementary school, my political beliefs, and China became fun to talk about again. New York became lovely. I even made an origami frog and I hadn't done that in over ten years. I also met someone who loved onions with everything and who always ordered chicken and broccoli and could quote classical Spongebob. I thought he looked great in suits and in pajamas when slipping into bed with me. While walking he showed me the hospital he was born in and told me about his grandfather who served in World War II. He seemed to accept my quirks, moments of haughtiness, my old AOL email, me saying that climbing up the stairs was too much for me, and my nerdiness. He reassured me that I'll go to China and everything will work out for me. The little things done were overwhelming. He also opened up a date by saying he was reading a textbook for fun and asked if I'd like to hear what he learned about electricity. I was very happy, every date was something to look forward to, and it all started because I happened to be sitting there and he saw me. I've felt odd ever since. I don't know, I guess I'm lucky? I feel ridiculous that it all even remains on my mind!

    At the Deno's Wonder Wheel park they have a bunch of "Zoltar Speaks" and "Grandmother's Prophesies." Those are so old-fashioned! I love the Zoltar Speaks machines. Here are my fortunes:
    Grandmother's Prophesies wrote:
    ZOLTAR wrote:
    After the Cyclone we went on the dreaded swinging ride... I said I had gone on it in Shanghai, but this was way worse!
    [​IMG]
    It swung you back and forth, but what was different was it swung you completely over and stops you so that you're sitting upside down in the air for a few horrifying moments. OK, when that happened, I actually said, "Okay, this needs to be done now!" I can do roller coasters, thrill rides, and free falls, but that scared me! I was sitting upside down, looking down at the park, and I was holding on for dear life. It was not a good scary! After we got off Shrisha and I were both dazed and she said that was actually scarier and more intense than the roller coasters and extreme thrill rides. I'm not doing that again!

    So we decided to go on the Wonder Wheel to calm down and I loved the views of the beach! The amusement parks have colorful tents, you see the roller coasters, and it was really nice! We went around twice and got great shots and relaxed. Then we went to White Castle and rested while talking. After that, to prep ourselves for Soarin' Eagle and The Thunderbolt we went on some of the less extreme rides. I went about in circles, flying through the air, in one. We went on the Glyding ride which was mainly for kids, but it had us lying down in the seat and we thought, "How much more relaxing can you get for a ride?"

    We went walking on the boardwalk before we decided to ride Soarin' Eagle. It was a nice walk and the sun was out and the sky was blue again. I'm not sure why Coney Island and this area gets a bad rap. All I saw were families and kids and people wanting to have fun. I know it's not in the best area ever, but there's this overall good atmosphere at the parks and beach.

    The Wild River one got us a bit wet at the end, but it was fun! It had no straps or anything really to hold you down so we were freaking out! It wasn't as bad as we thought it would be except for the big drop!

    Soarin' Eagle was thrilling and I was scared I was going to fly out of my seat. I kept thinking, "I DON'T WANT TO DIE NOW! I CAN'T DIE NOW!"
    Then I decided to go go-karting and I had never done that before. I was in last place when we all had to stop as someone's kart was stuck, so we all were in a clump. Our cars were shut down so I wasn't able to go despite pushing on my accelerator. After a few moments of waiting I pushed on my accelerator a little bit, my car was able to move, and realized we were all actually ready to go again. People thought the kart was still being fixed and were waiting around without trying and so without a moment to lose I pressed down hard and zoomed past the group, hair flying behind me, and I thought, "HAHA, SEE YA SUCKERS! AHAHAHAHAHA *cackles*" Ah, what a victory~

    Then... it was time to face The Thunderbolt. Shrisha decided not to do it so I faced it alone. I was so nervous! The line was long so the anticipation was killing me. Then once I was in it we slowly, I MEAN SLOWLY, moved all the way to the top, and I thought I was going to die. We got to the very top and when we dropped down, oh my God, it was thrilling! Even while we were riding through it I thought, "I love the thrill of this! The adventure!" It was awesome and I was laughing the whole way through! That's how I normally am on rides.

    Every time we got on a ride Shrisha and I said to each other, "It was nice knowing you. It was a nice 22 years of life. I had a good time. Say goodbye to my family for me. At least we died having fun. It was a real nice time on earth"-- things like that, haha!

    There were fireworks and everything lit up in pretty colors when night came. I haven't seen so many colors at night since Shanghai.

    At the carnival-ish area we walked through this guy came up to me and said, "Pretty girls get free shots on the house!" and handed me some darts to throw at balloons. Then this other guy yelled at us, "GIRLS. GIRLS... I guess you're not girls." We decided not to do any of the games, haha, maybe next time!

    We decided to do bumper cars one last time and it was still just as fun. Our train ride was longer since the Q decided to become local at that point, and we realized we were at Coney Island for 9 hours! We sat among three couples and a rapping black girl. We talked about sea shanties and I don't know what else.

    All in all, it was a really great day. I don't know why people don't go to Coney Island more often, but it's a fun place to go to. It's old as heck, there's a lot of history there, there's the beach and boardwalk, there are a ton of restaurants, and there are fun rides and games for any type of person and even fireworks every night. :)

    Some swashbuckling photos:
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    Now to watch Jurassic Park... Man, it brings back memories of the Jurassic Park world at Islands of Adventure. I love going there every time! I really liked going to the Walking with Dinosaurs show with my dad too!
     
  11. flowersofnight -moderator- -moderator-

    flowersofnight
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    Posted: Wed Jul 23, 2014 3:14 pm

    Well I might as well start up the new thread, it's time ::batsu::
     
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