I guess I should've posted in here looong time ago o.o Well, here goes....
Firstly...SORRY FOR LONG POST, I couldn't help it!!! >.<
The whole story of my Malice Mizer obsession started around Xmas three years ago, where my friend for the very first time showed me Jrock. It started with her having a picture of Gackt on her MSN avatar, and she asked me if I thought he looked cool. o.o I told her he looked really handsome, but I didn't really care so much ^^; Some days later she came over to my house and showed me Malice Mizer. I saw a short Illuminati-concert, and I thought the melody was really catching. But to be honest I wasn't used to Visual Kei, so I didn't like them ; ;
She also showed me some pictures too, but I was all like "They all look like girls!" >.< I was soo stupid there!!! *Slaps herself*
Anyways, after showing me some other concerts and PVs like Gekka no Yasoukyoku, she gave up. When she left, she accidentally forgot to delete the Illuminati song she had saved onto my pc. o.o And thank god for that! Some weeks later, somewhere in late February I was cleaning up on my pc, and I randomly found the old, dusty song in a tiny little map. I had forgotten all about Malice Mizer until i saw that song, and I thought with myself "Oh, it was those guys.."
I right-clicked on the song and was THAT close to deleting it, before I faintly remembered the catchy melody and decided to give them a chance. I listened to the song, and eventually I began to like it. After a few times of listening to it, I decided not to delete it! ^^
I listened to it lots of times every day, and really started to like Illuminati. For some reason I had started talking about Malice Mizer's Illuminati to a friend of me, and he said "Yeah, it's a cool song. But why don't you listen to some more songs of Malice Mizer?" I hadn't even thought about that until then ^^; So on, he showed me Brise performed in the Merveilles concert, and from that second there was no way back. I all of sudden found myself downloading all the Malice Mizer-songs, clips and videos I could find!
After a while listening to their music and watching their concerts and interviews, it wasn't only the music that drawed me towards them. I was really touched by each member's appearance and personality. I started reading and learning more about all of them, learned the difference between Közy and Yu~ki (Yes, I didn't recognize their faces and expressions at first ^^; ) and I began to understand the true meaning of music and Visual Kei. Some weeks later, I was actually obsessed with them. I wasn't any expert or anything, but at least I could call myself a true fan of Malice Mizer! *Nods*
I was dragged towards Kami the moment I learned more about him v.v His personality, his awesome drumming talent and of course his beautiful look. I remember I was watching the "Fishing Lessons" interview when I kind of switched from liking Gackt the most to Kami x_X Sounds weird, yes >.< But it was really something special with everyone. All the members of Malice Mizer became really important to me, and I kept searching for songs and videos, hoping to get to know more about them.
But, one time when I was watching a interview, I all of sudden vaguely remembered that my friend had told me about one of the members that had died. My heart almost stopped when I remembered that. I stopped the interview and flew over to the internet to find out which of them that was dead. >.<
And there it was. Kami's death announcement. I remember I kind of died a little inside >.< I cried for almost three days.
And now, I know most that is to know about them, and I've even gotten to the point where I've seen Mana-sama for real!!! It's unbelievable that if I hadn't stopped for those tiny milliseconds, giving Illuminati this one last chance, nothing of this would've happened. ^^;; By clicking on the play-button on Illuminati that one time, I decided the direction of my life without knowing it.
They have really changed how I am, I can never go back to what or who I was before I got to know Malice Mizer. And...I'm happy for that ^^